They say there’s no better day like today to give up smoking. Well then, there’s no better day like today to give up fear. 

This is a first of a long series of posts, fate allows it, on what my suffering from depression has taught me over the last four years.

I pick acceptance today, as I’ve felt it closest over the last months. I’ve began to understand what acceptance truly meant, all along.

Accepting life and accepting yourself in sober entirety. Accepting a reality that is painful, very painful. Hardly ever seen. Merely understood. Yet so vibrant, so potent, so no BS.

You see, there is the other side of every situation in life. Each moment of excitement holds in it the risk of free falling. Each moment of despair then, hold in it your chance of being redeemed. Year after year, month after month, week after week, day after day, night after night … Morning after morning. A Sunday morning like this. 

On the other side of acceptance I have found empowerment. I have found the strength of one’s holding their life in their own hands. With full responsibility and immense love. You won’t know how powerful this feels, until you’re there. 

Let’s see where this acceptance of mine takes me.