Life goes on

My knees go soft, I breathe with interruptions. It’s my last day in Vienna. It’s been a long time, it’s been an authentic time. It’s been a time for growing up.

I like to pick words, words that best describe a feeling, a moment, a life time, an emotion… a place. My word for Vienna would be calmness. It’s what this city breathes, it’s what it gave me. Here, I’ve grown into knowing what calmness truly is. I’ve internalized this feeling, this state of mind and heart. Don’t think it was easy. I came here being that person who wanted everything to happen today, if not yesterday… and I’ve had to fight my failures through, my long life habits, to get to understand that Life has its own rhythm, a less rushed one. Or at least, to understand that Life it’s not to be rushed by my fears, uncertainties, needs and ego driven desires. Life has its own rhythm.

Whenever I will be looking back at this time of my life, I will do it with gratitude. You may say it just happened, for me to grow up this path in Vienna, and not in other place. I would argue this. I don’t believe in coincidences; not in those that mark one’s being. I believe we are given what we need, at certain moments in our lives. I believe almost four years ago, Vienna was given to me. I took the gift and I tell myself I’ve made the best out of my being here, I could have.

Auf Wiedersehen, Wien!  A bientot, Bruxelles.